I know I am crazy - 6/30/08 - 4w1d

Ok so after the low beta, and actually at 11DPO, 21 isn't THAT bad plus it's the doubling that is important. Anyway I had one more digital test so I ran home on my lunch break and it still says "Pregnant". So here's to a doubling beta!

1st Beta HCG - 6/30/08 - 4w1d

Ok so my first HCG level was just a little lower than I was hoping for. It was a measley little 21 but I know that it's the doubling that is the more important thing. So I am going back in for another draw this afternoon. Wish me luck!

Mantras! - 6/26/08 - 3w4d

Ok so for those of you that don't know I had a miscarriage back in Jan 08. We had only told our immediate families that we were pregnant so many of you don't know about our loss. This being one of the reasons that we want to wait to tell everyone.

So these are the MANTRAS that I will live by for the next 9 months!

--"Today I am pregnant and I love my baby."

--"I am pregnant until someone tells me otherwise."

--"My past does not dictate my future. A previous m/c does not mean I will have another m/c."

--"Just because something sad is happening to another poster, does not mean it will happen to you." We all know m/c and complications are not contagious!

-- "Hope does not make bad things happen" You cannot ‘jinx’ your pregnancy by creating a ticker, getting excited, or telling someone. Live in the positive!

--And this is the hardest one: "There is nothing I can do to prevent a m/c from happening. Worrying yourself sick doesn't prevent a m/c. And if (gods forbid) it were to happen again, I know I will survive."


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Well here I am PREGNANT! - 6/26/08 - 3w4d

June 26th, today is the day I found out that Rob and I are going to become parents. We are so excited to get started in this amazing journey. I had 2 + digital tests today. My first HCG Beta was drawn today and I will find out the results on Mon (damn office is closed on Fri's).

So the hardest part about today is that we have decided to wait until we see and or hear our babies heartbeat to tell anyone, even our parents. It will be very hard as I see my parents everyday, Rob doesn't think I will be able to make it so guess we'll see. So when you guys eventually get the link to this blog, well sorry.